period

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

So, he left me for another girl. I didn't want to be one of those girls that feel like their life is over. I just thought of it as a new beginning. I'm done making the same mistakes over and over again. I've learned this time, it's over. I can do better, and I will do better. You were meant for me, but I guess, she was meant for you..

Currently listening to: If I were a boy by Beyonce
Currently feeling: pensive

Posted by kidbaliw at 07:55 AM in real world, what I'm feeling as a stickied post | Deadmakels ang lahat! Koment na!

HAIR UPGRADE

recently had my hair upgraded.
ang mahal ah.
in a way nagsisi
 ako kasi dami nagsabi
i can do it and have the same result but for minimal price.
oh well too late for that..

yung buhok ko may mahabang bangs dati
at since nagpastraight ako..
kinda natatakpan niya ang mga mata ko
as per guidelines..
(yes may guidelines pong binibigay ang going straight)
bawal i-clip or iheadband ang hair
bawal ilagay sa likod ng ears.
kaya ginupitan ko sarili ko ng bangs.

matagal ko din namn pinangarap magmala-super model look ang hair ko
(for me super models have super straight hair with bangs)
dati lagi akong binabara ng mga parlorista
pag sinabi ko puwede pong may bangs tulad nun
sabay turo kay tyra banks
sasabihin nila
"pang straight hair lang po siya"
puwes ngayon..puwede na!

kaso nung makita ko sarili ko sa salamin.
naalala ko yung buhok ko nung grade 5 pako.
parang ganun. ang weird.
parang bumalik ako sa kabataan.
sabi nga ng kapatid ko parang grade 5 lang.
at least i dont look like im 27 yrs old.

 

 

Posted by supervane at 10:21 PM | 5 Mga Umispluk

HUGS

Dahil pupuntang camsur si crush today at 4days syang mawawala, at dahil alam nyang sobrang mami-miss ko sya at masa-sad ako habang wala sya pinilit nya akong pagbigyan at naghalf day sya kahapon para lang manood kami ng my only u kahapon. Grabe dun pa lang sobrang na touch na ako at kinilig, imagine nag half day sya para lang pagbigyan ako medyo late na kami nakauwi. Naguilty tuloy ako kasi wala pa syang pahinga at kailangan nya pa mag impake. Siguro a little past 9pm ko na sya naihatid sa kanila.

Pero Hindi pa pala dun natapos ang pagiging sweet at keso ni crush. Dahil ito ang sumalubong sakin pagdating ko sa office ngayong umaga pagbukas ko ng inbox ko:

Posted by itchyme at 08:42 AM | 8 Mga Umispluk

my random thoughts for the day

"In fact they rarely agreed on anything.They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday but in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other."
      -The Notebook (2004)

I'm waiting here for you to realize no one will love you the way I do. You say all the words I want to hear but your actions make me wonder.. How many others hear those same words? I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. Because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. Okay, I'll admit it, I'm afraid of loving someone. I mean really loving them and those feelings are never returned. That hurts.. a lot. You can keep hurting me, just make sure you dont leave scars.. cause scars remind me that the past is real.

Don't waste your chance while I'm here coz one day if you'll realize something.. I might not be there anymore.

Currently listening to: maybe by up dharma down (forever playing mode)
Currently feeling: crazy

Posted by kidbaliw at 06:40 PM in what I'm feeling | 6 Mga Umispluk

missin' my RD

I just got home. I wish it was my restday to enjoy the night I had kanina. Hai. Wahahaha! Kakabitin!

Buti nga may naghatid sa akin.. Talamat po! hehe. Paxenxa naman at cinderella ako umuwi.. Well maxado ata napadami ang inom ko.. I had met new friends there at it was really a blast! In fairness, I miss going to bars.. Ahahaha! Hmmm.. What I really need I guess. Hindi ko na nga alam mga sinusulat ko basta nag tatype lang yung mga fingers ko. Gusto ko sana magsulat ng nararamdam ko ngayon pero I think non sense lang at kabaliwan lang maisusulat ko dito. Hmm.. I think better post it as a private one..

Wala. Wala ako masabi e! Sana maka pasok ako sa work on time. Hihi. Yun lang. Tutulog na nga ako! Tangina sakit ng ulo ko! May gali.. Tagal pa ng RD ko!

Currently listening to: I'm a flirt (remix) by R. Kelly feat T.J. & T. Pain | Barrender by T-pain feat Akon
Currently feeling: high

Posted by kidbaliw at 12:59 AM in real world | 2 Mga Umispluk

confessions of a not so broken heart 2

I kinda like your stare.. The stare of regret in your eyes.

I had loved you before so much and  you knew that I can throw away my world just to be with you. We promised to stay together against all odds. You even told me that I was the one you wanted to spend the rest of your life.

But I found out that you're playing fire with your bestfriend.. (that bitch!) You thought that I'll never knew it huh?

Seeing you now and hearing you calling my name. I knew you wanted to speak with me.. You even tried to follow me.

I just acted I never knew you. Because you knew we almost made it but we never make it last.

** I just saw my ex bago ako pumasok kanina. I know it was him and he tried to catch my attention. The hurt was done and I will never forget what he had done. It's funny seeing him like that. Hindi ko kasi ugali magrecycle ng basura.. Once lang yun pero hindi ko na siya uulitin. Ang basura ay basura at dapat nang sunugin or ibaon sa lupa.

Message to him:

^*$k.. Sorry pero I can't be with friends with you. Thank you for giving me the most memorable birthday in my life. I just hope na pinagsisisihan mo yung nagawa mo before. Kulang pa yang naramdaman mo kanina. I swear kulang pa yan.

I've been through all kinds of pwedeng complicated na relasyon.. (I think) Kaya siguro ganito ako ngayon.. Yeah right! Boys will be boys.

Currently listening to: cry by rihanna
Currently feeling: amused

Posted by kidbaliw at 11:05 PM in timeline, real world | 2 Mga Umispluk

Notice To Explain

Babasagin ko na ang matagal kong pananahimik!(shit, ang showbiz).hehehe

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko to sisimulan, kasi hindi ko rin alam bakit ako nagpapaliwanag. Basta wala na kami ni GF, break na kami and I'm single right now. Ang friendster status na "in a relationship" ay mananatili siguro sa status na yan hanggang bago mag friday. Hindi pa kasi ako handang magpaliwanag sa mga kaibigan namin, sa pamilya nya at pamilya ko kung ano ang nangyari sa amin. Basta wala na kami at hindi ko sya niloko. walang ibang taong involved sa break up namin. Hindi si Crush o kahit na sino pa man. Alam mo naman yan Cha diba? na bago pa dumating si crush eh ayaw ko na talaga. Siguro ang naging  pagkakamali ko lang eh pinatagal ko pa at sinubukan ko pang ibalik yung dati na hindi na pala kaya pa.

Hindi ko na alam sasabihin ko.. Basta sorry and alam ko na this time tama tong ginawa ko at hindi ito para lang sa akin kung hindi para sa kanya din...

 

Posted by itchyme at 09:52 AM | 41 Mga Umispluk

A Mom's Life

At exactly 9:30am this day, I feel good when I got home just because I see my family busy all together playing games (including my youngest).  Around 2pm, I was in panic, I have to fetch my eldest and I thought Im late already. I was sleeping from 11am - 1:58pm when hubby woke me to fetch my son. Either that or lull my youngest baby Cyrus into sleep which as I saw it was far from reality. By the time we (I and Cedie) got home, I feel annoyed because he does not want to take a nap and Im all too ready to fall at my feet and sleep. When finally he agreed to take a nap, I noticed that few clothes I laundered yesterday are still in the terrace and are waiting to be hanged. I stopped for a while and think "Will I be selfish enough to sleep first then take care of it later? but I thought to myself, " Putik, bka bumaho yun". So I immediately got a pail of water, put some downy isang banlaw on it then put the clothes on the pail then hang it. By the time I finished its already 3:35pm, and I said to myself, "Eto na, finally matutulog nako".

And so I slept. 6pm, I felt hubby waking me up, saying sorry he needs my help. He needs to fix our dinner but no one will hold baby cyrus and I said "Papa, maawa ka namn, sa 5 oras yta na itinulog ko, durog pa,  bigyan mo nman ako kahit 1 oras pa". So let me be. I stirred in mysleep later and realized its already 7pm and I saw hubby, apeparing so exhausted while saying, Ma, gising ka na..". I immediately got up and say "Cge akina si baby". "Kumain na ba si Cedie?" "Oo", he said.

So hubby and baby finally settled to sleep while I went downstairs to see my eldest playing with his buzz lightyear action figure. When I looked into kitchen, the sink is full of unwashed plates, unwashed feeding bottles. So instead of eating right away, I wash the dishes and the sink first, By the time I finished its already 8pm. Afterwards I ate my dinner,  - cold leftovers.

"Cedie, maglinis ka na" I called to my eldest. Good thing, he did not argue this time and by the time I got him into his pajamas, its already 8:45pm. Then I went up only to see hubby saying, "Hindi ako makatulog", ang sama pakiramdam ko". I said, magshower ka muna para gumaan pakiramdam mo. He said he already did. So went down and ate some green mangoes and went right up.

By 9pm, I looked into my son's notebooks although I know he does not have any assignments. I noticed he used up almost all of his notebooks and needs to be replaced. I ran again to the store who sells notebooks, which is 2 blocks away. I noticed a stall selling fries and shakes. I bought some and then went back home. I called my son and hubby for fries and shakes while I fix my son's notebooks by covering it with the right color of art paper and plastic cover.

Around 9:30pm, hubby and eldest said goodnight. I finished what I was doing at exactly 10:10pm. Then I quickly ran to the bathroom, had a quicky bath, then went up to put clothes on, went to the sink to brush my teeth, grabbed my bag then went outside. It was 10:21pm.

By the time I got to Buendia, there is  no jeepney in sight, I sighed and prayed I wont be late. It was 10 :55pm when I got to Ground floor of the office, 10:57 when I got to my locker then 10:59 when I log in (with no tools yet), then went on avail.

I felt tired, bust satisfied that his day although not the most productive day has been a blessing with my family, with my eldest not having nth tantrums for today, with my baby happily cooing by himself and hubby being there, supportive and as tired, if not more, as I am.

Currently listening to: 30 seconds to Mars
Currently feeling: satisfied

Posted by nessieric at 01:35 AM | 1 Mga Umispluk